Listening

You know, I am going through this whole feng shui changing thing. It's pretty awesome, but the downfall is that the more I become clear about what it is I want to do when I grow up, the more I can't stand nursing.

It's not just nursing, it's the negativity that runs amok. I had to ask myself, have I never sat back and listened to the endless negative chatter? Have I participated too willingly, blinding me to the effects? Is it going on ONLY in the unit I'm currently working in? It's surreal, really. Try it sometime. Just listen to what we listen to every fricking day for 12 hours straight.

I concentrated on listening today. I listened from the moment I walked through the doors. I heard people moan about how they didn't want to be there. I listened as people threw hissy fits because we don't have a tech working with us. I listened to one nurse as her head was about to explode because she got three patients and two were feeders. The list goes on and is endless. All day long.

It was easy to not partake. I had this eureka moment. I don't want to be around that kind of shit. It's hard enough doing what we do, but absorbing that bullshit is heavy on the shoulders in a very insidious way.

I have a great story about Frosted Flakes, but first must power walk~!